Talk Shit: Of Patronus and Time-turners

I wish I knew how to stop the turning,

Of this time-turner in perpetual spinning,

I wish I had the strength to unhinge myself,

Of its chains and of the hypnotic time travel,

But like those in the time room of time-turners,

I'm trapped in an endless loop of falling over,

Un-falling, re-falling,

You were Lupin at a time I was in a state of terror,

At a time I didn't know how to fend off dementors,

But with fate's playful twist,

You were also that thought of bliss,

And then luck left, because worse,

You were also my patronus,

Except that I cannot summon you to my heart's desire,

Or even at will when dementors strike,

So I hold on to the time-turner,

And faintly to myself, i whisper,

Expecto patronum,

And no matter how much magic creeps into me,

When we share moments and memories,

After all these spells and potions I memorized,

It hurts to see that I'm still a muggle in your eyes,

Maybe someday I'd gather the strength,

Like a member of the Order, hellbent,

I'll send your way a patronus message,

To maybe, just maybe, make you realize,

The reason I held on and stood with my wand,

Fending of dementors with all my might,

I was always hoping to see you across the river,

And maybe stay with me forever,

Because you have always been my patronus,

In this world full of dementors,

Always,

Always.

And then finally I can let go of this time-turner.

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